Sometimes you feel like a yo-yo ...sometimes you don't :)

I'm a yo-yo....yeppers....that's right a yo-yo...some days I'm up some days I'm down....some days I'm up and down, other days my spinning round and round going all over the place, some days I'm walking the straight line, some days I just can't seem to get it right.  But all in all like a yo-yo my life is good and in the end it always turns out right. It might take a bit of a tug here or a bigger tug there or even at times I have to stop and rewind....but it all works out....the tangles come undone and the line is cleared again to go go go till I hit another bump and find a way to roll by without getting to many tangles in my line.

This morning was a straight and narrow going down the line just fine morning. I got up, did my workout, drank tons of water, had a bump at breakfast because all I had was turkey bacon and a chicken hot dog.  no vegs and no carbs.  It takes a balance of carbs, fat, and protein to get a good diet.  So it's a bump, but I can still roll along with my day knowing that bumps will only become mountains if I allow it.


Yesterday...was a spinning around and around day.
If you just look at my final numbers I had a really great day.  But if you break it down to all the little bumps you can see that my day didn't always spin straight but in the end....it all worked out.

my body fit numbers for the day:

BodyMedia FIT data for March 12, 2011

Calories Burned - 3392

Calories Consumed - 1768

Total Activity - 1:26

Moderate Activity - 1:26

Vigorous Activity - 0:00

Steps Taken - 12881

Sleep Duration - 6:58

Lying Down - 9:41

Sleep Efficiency - 72%

Now lets brake it down:

1- I didn't get in any vigorous activity-bump

2- Didn't get in my walk for the day with the kiddos-bump

3-Got in over 10,000 steps - Yea :)

How?...we had a ton of things to do yesterday...all of which were in two general areas.  We parked the car far from the first stop....dog food... walked there and then walked it back to the car....walk to the computer shop to pick up computer...back to car...walk to Sam's  for those things that I pick up in bulk like paper towels...back to car....walk to next thing and so on....it took 3 hours longer than normal to run errands but we got in a ton of walking in.

4- total calories burned :)

5- total calories eaten....looks like a good number but when I break it down it really was lots of bumps.

had a turkey sausage for breakfast with lots of water. 

pomegranate juice with sparkling water

Bump as there were no vegs or carbs

for lunch I had a hot dog from Sam's and a large soda...big bump....had told myself no soda till Easter...Why is it so much easier for me to trash the junk food my hubby brings to the house than it is for me to say no to the kids when they want to grab pizza/hot dogs, or soda.   Before we left home I had said we will not be getting anything on the road other than water, nuts, or jerky.  Everyone was in agreement...by the time we got to the car I say..."well maybe we will have one soda." No one asked for it...I just blurted out well maybe we will have a bit (knowing full well at that point I was gonna get me a soda) bump  talking about spinning...lol

 

It's a habit of my son's to get pizza when we go to Sam's so when he asked I thought about saying no but I really wanted a soda so I said yes.  One hot dog and soda later I felt guilty about not sticking to what I had said but bounced right back quickly thinking I'll just make it up the rest of the day.  (still a spinning yo-yo)

 

At Walmart....had to return that juicer ....it wasn't all I thought it would be....my daughter asked for a Snapple...it's not soda so I said sure....so then my son wanted something...he has a love for anything blue so he wanted the blue drink.. today the blue drink was a blue soda.  I said, " don't you already have soda left from Sam's?"  he said "yep, but it's not blue.  I don't want it anymore"  Ended up getting the blue soda and he didn't finish the orange soda....guess what...mom hit another bump and drank it for him. 

 

so at this point I've eaten sausage, hot dog, and soda.  not a real healthy day.  By the end of the day the only thing added to the food for the day was 2 more sausages and another soda.

The numbers looked good but the quality of food wasn't...there were bumps and spin outs but in the end I'm still ready to take on the next moment.

 

On the way home I made a comment to my daughter that I was gonna have to find a way to get David out of the habit of asking for pizza at Sam's or just not go to Sam's for a bit.  She said, "Mom, Lets just carry more and better snacks in the car."  She's so smart :)  Told her that was a great idea and that's what we'll be doing.

 

Last night I was thinking about the fact that it is so easy to say no to my hubby and his junk food but when it comes to my kids it's not as easy for me to say no.  It should be easier.  But it's not.  I know it's not good for them and the fun for a moment is not better than the long term health risks.  These are some of the things that make me feel like a spinning yo-yo, up and down up and down while going round and round.

 

I also tried to think about why is it that I like soda so much...I was thinking I hardly ever had any when I was growing up....then it hit me, like a ton of bricks right in the face!  I have an emotional connection with soda!

What~!  How's that you say?  When i was growing up the only times we would have soda would always be a big thing.  Once each summer...twice of we were really lucky my dad would bring home root-beer and ice-cream and we would have root-beer floats.  it was always a very happy time. 

The 2ND way we had soda- every Sunday we would drive to grandma's house after church.   We always had to stop half way to get gas.  Sometimes...not often but once every few months my dad would come from the gas station with an ice cream sandwich or a bottle of root beer for each kid.  Yummy....another really happy time...on the way to grandma's house

The 3rd time was about once a year (don't know what the celebration was) but we would get to go to a pizza restaurant.  With the pizza always came a bottomless pitcher of root beer.  Another happy time....family time and getting to eat out.  We didn't have to funds to eat out much so eating out was a very special treat.  the only time we had anything other than water to drink while eating out was when we were at the pizza place.  Pizza and soda...yummy!  another happy memory

the 4th and only other time we would have soda was in the summer.  We lived way out in the country a few miles down a dirt road.  At the highway turnoff to the dirt road there was a little mom and pop gas station.  sometimes my parents would give each of us kiddos 25 cents.  My siblings and I would walk all the way down the dusty hot road to the gas station with our 25 cents and we could by whatever our 25cents could buy. For me it was a grape soda, gum ball, and Tootsie roll....another happy memory ...sitting at the side of the store in the shade on the cool rocks with my sister and brothers having a really yummy sweet snack. The smell of grape soda with little bubble tickling my nose.  The sun beating down but unable to touch us in the cool shade.  The smell and taste of chocolate from the Tootsie roll followed by more bubbles tickling from the soda.  Once everyone was finished I'd enjoy the sweet bubble gum on the walk back home.   Everyone was happy for a bit...no one was fighting or any of the other bad stuff that comes along with having siblings....it was just happiness....joy...and yummy.

 

So after coming to the realization that my thing with soda really isn't about the soda at all but just the emotional attachment I have placed with the soda.  Step one of fixing the problem is realizing you have a problem...step two....finding the cause of the problem....I think I have now done that....step three...ugh...not sure....but I am so happy to at least finally realize what is driving my desire for that bubbly stuff to tickle my nose.

 

My days are like a yo-yo.  So is my life....but with care I keep the line untangled and when there is a knot I take the time to work it out and then go on with the joy of my yo-yo. 

 I'm not perfect, but I am just what I have made of myself

My life's not perfect, but it's just what I've made it.

If I'm not happy about anything in my life only I can change things to make it better

I have the power to do whatever I want....sometimes I just don't feel like doing it.

Sometimes it is easier to sit and watch rather than take the power we each have.

Sometimes I watch, sometimes I follow, sometimes I lead.....

But when I look at the big picture.....I have a great life...and anything I want to make better is so totally in my reach...I just have to reach out, grab it, and work like heck to get it.

 

Sometimes I'm to hard on myself, sometimes I'm not hard enough

But all in all I do what I can at that moment and then strive to be better in the next.  Isn't that really what it's all about?  Just trying to do better each moment...but taking an extra breath when we need to :)

 

Remember...if you can Dream it, if you can Think it, you CAN DO IT!  :)