My 4000 calorie snack

So this morning I'm thinking if I really want to keep my blog about my fitness journey 'real' then I need to include my successes and falls so in the end when I reach my goals other people like me will realize it is possible to reach your goals without beating yourself up over the little things or the big things.  It's all really just about keeping your eye on the prize and working through whatever gets thrown your way along your journey.

 

Yesterday I was tired.  I didn't feel like eating much through the day other than  protein so that's what I had.   I took a nap for a few hours in the afternoon while my son was taking a nap so I didn't get in all my steps but I felt less tired.  

Last night I told my kids, lets go to the store and get a soda. (I knew my son was gonna be up for a bit anyway after taking a 4 hour nap) They were excited about the idea of going to the corner store.  When we got there I told them to pick out whatever they wanted and after about 30 minutes we were on the way home with several bags of junk food. 

 

Everything was in one or two serving bags since I had keep in mind I didn't want anything left this morning.

On the way home I was thinking to myself ...'Why am I having odd food craving so bad this week?"  I realized it was most likely because of the steroids I had been taking for almost two weeks (today is the last day ..Yeppee!) Then I also realized that it was about time for mother nature to visit and that can result in odd food cravings. 

When we got home I let the kids set up a blankets in the living room and we had a big junk food/movie night.  (and wouldn't you know mother nature made her visit)

I did keep up with everything I ate and weighed things and put em on their own plate so I wasn't eating out of the bags.  I was breaking my diet but keeping up with it...

I know maybe I should have felt guilty but I really didn't because I know if I have a really bad craving and I don't settle it, it will keep bugging me.  I hadn't had a junk food night since December so I'm thinking I'm doing pretty good considering there was a time when I would pig out on junk food like that a few times a week. 

When I logged in the snack in my food log the total number of calories for the 'snack was 4000!'

That's a lot!  But I still wasn't beating up myself but thinking "That's actually really good!'  This was the first time since  January that my total calories for the day reached 4000.  I've been doing good for a few months!

 

I also realized why it is my hubby gives the kids junk food on the sly....the kids were so excited and jumping around so happy to be able to eat whatever they wanted without me getting upset.  They were really having a great time.  The laughter filled the house.  I realized my hubby was just trying to make them happy.  So now I must find something that will make them jump for joy the way an ice cream cone and chips do.  When I find it I know it will be a great thing!

 

After everyone was finished eating my daughter said,  "Ugh!  I don't know why I ate all that now my stomach hurts."  I told her that sometimes when you are eating a lot of healthy foods it's good to go ahead and splurge on things you miss because when you get the tummy ache it will make you want the junk food less.  She didn't say anything but I could tell that by the look in her eye something had just clicked with her.  (just hope it was the point I was trying to get across) :)

 

My 4000 calorie snack included:

White Cheddar Popcorn, Premade turkey and roast beef sandwich, jelly beans, dr. pepper, hot fries, Reese's, pringles, honey roasted peanuts, cheese danish, mac and cheese, canned chicken noodle soup, lays, Twinkies, premade ice-cream cone, and a m&m ice cream sandwich.

 

My numbers from yesterday:

BodyMedia FIT data for March 13, 2011

Calories Burned - 2662

Calories Consumed - 4951

Total Activity - 0:37

Moderate Activity - 0:36

Vigorous Activity - 0:01

Steps Taken - 7855

Sleep Duration - 4:42

Lying Down - 6:36

Sleep Efficiency - 71%

Today I woke today feeling rested and really ready to take on the world.  :) 

My tummy is still a bit on edge but it really is just a reminder to me to do better next time.
Sometimes I need big reminders as to why I do the things I do even when they aren't all that fun.

My hubby did ask me what made me get all the junk food last night when I had been so hard on him the past few months about junk food.  I told him it was most likely because it was my time of the month to lose me mind for a day or so...and I also told him about realizing why he give the kids food junk...because he just wants to see them happy.  He agreed that it was that, he said nothing will make David smile faster than Dad pulling a treat out of his work bag for him.  He's gonna try putting things like nuts and jerky in the bag and see if it will be just as good.  I reminded him how much both kids love nuts and dried meat and gave my approval for such treats to be keep in his work bag for the kids.

I got in a my workout around noon and followed it with yoga.  Today both kids were 'helping' me with my yoga.  When I was doing the moving cat my son climbed on my back as he normally does but today my daughter decided she wanted to play horse also.
An additional 40 pounds is a lot but an additional 140 pounds really made me work!  My daughter told my son something to the effect of it really was fun to 'help' mom with the yoga.  The 30 minute workout was a lot but we laughed more in that 30 minutes than we did with the junk food the night before.... I found something that they like more than junk food  already!  Yippee!  They just want to have fun with mom...it really doesn't matter if it's eating or rolling around on the floor....they are kids that need love and affection...and I have to remember that no matter how busy I get that the best thing I can do for them is just to give them my time freely and where ever it leads up will be fine as long as there is laughter and love involved.
 :)

Now it's off the computer for me and time to spend some more time with the kids.  :)

Keep going everyone!

Remember bumps in the road will only stop you if you allow them to.  You can do anything you set your mind to!